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Know Regrets, No Regrets

I read a great article today, Parenting is prevention: raising resilient, drug-free children.  You should read it. It’s excellent, and it ruined my day.  It says things I already know like “parental involvement can deter alcohol, drug and tobacco use.”  My middle son is a recovering alcoholic, drug addict and just recently gave up smoking.  I thought I was a parent who was involved.  What gives?             Dollarphotoclub_76690257

“In fact,” this article you should read continues, “in 2001, the National Center on Addiction and Substance Abuse at Columbia University concluded that parents were the most important influence on a child’s decision to smoke, drink, or use drugs.” Ouch.               

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Be All Done

Little boy Teddy was frantic.  He had something in his eye.  At the emergency room they had him on his back while they flushed hosed water over his open eye.  “Be all done!” he shouted over and over again.  “Be all done!”    Stop man

Years later, Ted at age 20 had flunked out of college for the second time, was living in a room off campus without a job, friends or money.  He was doing drugs and drinking alcohol 22 hours of every day.  “Be all done,” I thought constantly.  “Be all done.”

When I traveled the hour to meet him at the coffeeshop I didn’t know why he seldom left his basement apartment, so depressed. I felt sick when he asked me to buy him another sandwich for later.  I hated not giving him money.  He looked pale and was silent. Be all done. …

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Faith in the Foxhole

“As mothers, we advocate for our children.  We kiss boo-boos, cheer them on from the bleachers and encourage them at the kitchen table. We celebrate their victories and console them on their failures.  We defend them, brag about them to our own mothers and occasionally deliver a school assignment forgotten on the bedroom floor. When their spirits leave their connection to ours to pursue a substance, person, lifestyle or seduction, we may eventually find that there is nothing we can do to fix this situation.  We learn to pray.” From Just Keep Going; Spiritual Encouragement from the Mom of a Troubled Teen.                     Pray Letterpress Concept

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“Ya Gotta Just Keep Going”

When I am on the elliptical machine at the health club, there sometimes is a particular elderly gentleman on one of the stationary bicycles opposite me. He wears variations of a darker plaid, short sleeve, button-down shirt untucked over his pressed khaki pants. He is content to methodically push the pedals with his brown, rubber-soled street shoes over nylon dress socks. Occasionally he has a pen in his chest pocket and keeps time by the gold watch on his wrist. He does not watch TV while he bicycles and seems unconcerned with his surroundings.

He is not sad and not happy. When I smile at him he smiles back and goes slowly about his business, shuffling to the next weight-lifting machine even though his trainer Rory gently reminds him, “John, walk heel to toe”.                               shutterstock_164335502

My book, …

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Each Otherness

Why is it that the that the founders of Alcoholics Anonymous maintained that the muscle and bones of their sobriety was one alcoholic helping another alcoholic?  Because, they told each other’s story as no well-intentioned physician, spouse or counselor could do.  The “I am different” alcoholic’s experience was confronted by the mirrored experience of another alcoholic. I am told that the identification of one to another is cathartic; different cast of characters but same obsession, self-loathing and desperation. The solution to the problem was better received from someone who had walked in those shoes. color puzzle ring

So it was with me as a daughter of an alcoholic and a mother of a drug addict.  My friends were the best, bar none, long- suffering with me and dishing out encouragement like it was their…

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